Today I turned 19

12/7/12 - Today I turned 19
Was unable to fall asleep till around too, got up about 7 am and went to the Doc with my mom so she could get evaluated. She goes in next week for some real tests.
Got home and went back to bed. Slept off and on from 10 am to 12 pm. Axl showed up... Got into a bit of an argument with him... Ended up breaking up with him. Then mom got a phone call saying Jerry's check finally came in (he was supposed to get paid on the 1st), so we left. Gave Axl some time to calm down before he left. Get to EZ Money and there is no money in the bank account that the check was cashing from... Then the signature did match so we had to go to the other side of town to get a new check... Found out the trailer we were getting got sold out from under us. Finally got the check cashed. Got gas, got home changed went out to dinner to see my dad and grandpa. Only to find out he was not going to come.
So for my birthday I got:
My saddle (mom paid it off for me a while back)
$35 from Mike
and $60 from my dad.

12/6/12 - Tomorrow I turn 19
And I am bummed... I have never really had a good birthday party... Everyone that has ever came came because they were obligated too... I have very few friends in RL and it sucks... Sense everyone I get close to stabs me in the back, so I don't open up very often any more. I don't even have family to come to a birthday party.
Either way I was planning on having one this year... But everyone I invited wouldn't look to see if they had to work or if they had class. I'm not going to keep reminding everyone to for MY birthday. (Logan this does include you, I don't mean to be a bitch but yeah... and I do love you). Then on top of it, Jerry didn't get paid... AGAIN... He never gets paid on his pay day and its taking its toll. We are out of food, the animals are out of food, there is no gas in the SUV, my phone got shut off today, MDU is gonna shut everything off tomorrow if it don't get paid, and we were supposed to be moved out my this weekend. AND on top of everything, time is running out on this trailer we are trying to get. We need money that we don't have... And they are not going to hold it much longer.

Happy Birthday and Happy Holidays to me...

The only for sure people I will get to see for my birthday is Axl and my Mom.

AND I just found out my cousin has a brain tumor... She got flown to Denver today.